I already wrote about my rejection that happened a month ago, but something happened and I thought about talking about it a bit more. So, a month ago I asked a guy to go to the movies and he said no in a pretty cold way. He’s in my class and we used to talk a lot, but since then we didn’t talk at all. For a month, we didn’t say anything to each other, at least not directly.
Yesterday, I was reading and my friend was asking him where he was at in our work for our law class. I then heard my name and someone asking me where I was in our class. I looked away from my book and he was looking at me while smiling softly. I could tell he felt awkward to talk to me but relieved he managed to do it. I think he tried earlier in the day too, because he came to see me and my friend for a homework. But, I ignored him.
I was quite surprised, he’s a very shy boy. But I was happy that he talked to me. I knew someday I’d have to talk to him again because we’re in the same class. So I was relieved he did it first. At the same time, I felt like he was sorry and that he understood that he hurt me.
So when I looked up from my book, I smiled at him and answered him like I would have normally. Since last month, it was the first time I felt like that. I wasn’t as stressed or as awkward. I felt good, relieved. I don’t know how to explain it, I just felt different. I wasn’t embarrassed to see him anymore.